SHE TIP TOES TOWARDS HIM, every movement quiet and graceful, like a cat. and when she finally comes to stand in front of him, she lowers herself to his level. the original brings a hand up to wipe blood off of his chin with her thumb, gently. ‘shh,’ she hushes. she’s taken a cloth and started cleaning him of the blood that covers him — everywhere. but she focuses on his face, cleaning him so gently and with such care.
‘ the first is always the hardest, ’ she says, her lips pursing into a deep frown. ‘ it makes it all so real. ’ it all hits you at once after your first kill, the realization that your reality is different, that you are different. that even the kindest, gentlest soul has the capacity for cold blooded murder after they’re turned into a vampire. because vampires are monsters, plain and simple. rebekah made jeremy into a monster. no, she thinks with certainty. she won’t let that happen
she’d be ( even more ) damned if she let that sweet soul of his slip away. but she’s also promised to be honest with him, especially when it comes to the terrible parts of vampirism. and the fact is that he killed these people. and he will kill more people. rebekah, herself, has lost count of the number of people she’s murdered since turning. she’s afraid the number would send jeremy running to for the hills, even thinking that he could be possible of attaining that many names on his list. ‘ i’m going to make you some coffee. it helps with the high. ’and then she’s going to burn this house, and any evidence that they were ever here, to the ground. she doesn’t tell him that, yet, though. she wants him to relax, after all.
hazy, darken hues avoid her gaze, even upon her approach. his mind is like a broken record, burning every single second of the slaughter to memory, refusing to let him escape from his damnation. these people are the reason why they’re able to keep hope safe and— god, hope! his hearing is in tune enough to pick up on that little heartbeat, but he immediately regrets that fact. it’s been several days since he’s see her, let alone allowed himself to be anywhere near her room. tonight is validation for the distance he’s created. he was supposed to protect her from the demons at night, and instead became one himself.
his arms are too lethargic and heavy to shoo away her gentle touch – it’s far more than he deserves, a monster being comforted while surrounded by his victims. “they begged for mercy, and i didn’t even hesitate.” disgust-lanced tones leave his lips as jeremy turns his head to the side, eyes fixed on his handiwork. there’s plenty of landscape for her to tend to on that side of his jaw, so surely she’ll allow him this one reprieve. “he bled out much quicker than her.” a nod in the corpses’ direction. “his heart was beating so fast it just pushed the life right out of him. worried about his wife, i guess. and her?” there’s something of a scoff of self-deprecation. his fingers start to fidget, intertwine in the loose clasp of his hands, picking at the stains of his nail beds. “i think she died of pure fright.”
this is an independent tvd roleplay account, with verses to accommodate both the book and the tv show series. my jeremy is canon divergent after season 2. in general, most of my verses are set specifically after 3x11 when jeremy is compelled by damon to leave mystic falls. this is the easiest place for crossovers to occur as well. i have seen through season five, but don't expect to see a lot of s4-8 on this blog. if you do, guaranteed it's not canon compliant.
two important plot items: i will never write the infidelity stuff of s3. and i won't write jeremy killing kol. these are personal choices.
this blog has existed on tumblr since early 2011, with the original url being gilbert-jeremy. i've also used the urls jeremysgone (post-4x14), jeremysback (post-4x23), and dontyouxdare (post s5 finale).
due to the nature of jeremy's story, you may find triggering themes featured here, including self-harm, mental health issues, drugs, alcohol, addiction, violence, abuse, murder, suicide, and death. this blog will NOT write ANYTHING related to rape/sexual assault. please tag your nsfw so tumblr savior can do it's job!
on the subject of tagging, please tag anything related to jeremy's death in 4x14 as stacey don't look. Same goes for audio posts of 'Come Home' by OneRepublic aka the soundtrack to Jeremy's first death. Thanks!
SHIPPING: i am equal-opportunity as far as shipping goes, but roleplay is about so much more than romance and smut. i am an absolute sucker for a good, honest, platonic friendship. relationships are all fine and good, but it's the friendships that weave in and out that make them really special. i will never force a ship on you, and i ask that you return the same courtesy. the only ship i will flat out refuse is romantic damon x jeremy.
ORIGINAL CHARACTERS: are my lifeblood. please have a simple bio accessible on your blog for me to read!
PSA: IF I CAN'T READ YOUR BLOG, I WON'T FOLLOW YOU. it is not my job to make YOUR blog legible.
STARTERS: if you want to tag me in a random starter, go ahead! just remember that don't know the plots of seasons 6-8!
MEMES: send 'em. i don't care if we're mutuals or not. i do not believe in reblog karma and honestly don't care if you 'use' me as a 'meme resource.'
CONTACT ME: i will always reply to anything in my tag- as opposed to my inbox. i'm not the best at replying to messages or meme requests for that matter. i don't have a discord or skype and don't really plan on getting either.
WARNING: my muse is fickle, and i won't always reply to things in the order i receive them. i will not put up with being guiltripped to roleplay- whether it's passive aggressive posts or sending 'poke' messages to remind me to reply. i will literally just unfollow you and be done with it. i created jeremy to be my safe space away from a toxic rp environment, and i won't allow anyone to compromise that.
while this is a JEREMY GILBERT blog, there are three versions of him you may find on here, depending on the universe you interact with him. see the FCs here.
MUN: hi! my name is stacey (she/her). i'm 26 years old, and my otp is jeremy x allison argent (teen wolf). you can catch me at my personal blog here or my personal twitter here!
ICONS: starting of march 2019, any srm icons i will be using for replies have been made by my roleplay mum rachie. all mooney icons are made by the lovely evie. don't steal 'em!
biography
Jeremy is the adoptive brother and biological cousin of Elena Gilbert. Depending on his timeline, Jeremy is either a medium (prior to the collapse of the Other Side) or a member of the Brotherhood of the Five (a hunter). His best friends are Matt Donovan, Tyler Lockwood, and Bonnie Bennett.
Prior to the beginning of the series, his parents died in a tragic car accident. His sister, Elena, was also in the car that night, but managed to survive thanks to Stefan Salvatore, who rescued her before she could drown. As a way of coping with the accident, he started dealing and using drugs, but soon stopped after the death of his first girlfriend, Vicki Donovan, who had supposedly died of an overdose. Following the murder of his second girlfriend Anna, Jeremy purposely overdosed on pills after drinking vampire blood in the hope of becoming a vampire so he could turn off his humanity. However, his attempt to become a vampire failed, and the blood healed the damage the pills caused to his system.
Jeremy was shot by Sheriff Forbes after Damon dodged the bullet, and was revived by Bonnie, who at the time was channeling the power of over a hundred massacred witches at the witch burial ground. However, the spell that caused him to be revived also gave him the power to see ghosts, causing him to be haunted by the ghosts of his dead girlfriends Vicki and Anna.
After experiencing multiple traumatic events as a result of the supernatural drama in his town, including being compelled by Klaus to stand in front of a speeding car, Elena feared for his safety and arranged for Damon to compel him to live with extended family in Denver.
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