it won't fix what's really wrong
And you saw what you had to do.
canon divergent jeremy gilbert
tracking gilbertjeremy
adored by stacey
canon divergent jeremy gilbert
tracking gilbertjeremy
adored by stacey
‘ me? ’ she shakes her head, baffled. ‘ what about you, jeremy? ’ the brunette huffs, trying to blink away the tears that burn in her eyes. she can’t believe him, she can’t — ugh! he’s so unbelievably frustrating, even after all these years together. and he still doesn’t get it. when she can bring herself to meet his eye again, her chin is quivering with emotion. she just wants him to understand, but she has no idea how to do it.
‘ you are my life, jeremy gilbert. you gave me my son, and this beautiful girl growing in my belly. if anything happened to you — and it almost did! — i would lose my freaking mind. ’ she’s full-on crying now, tears streaming down her cheeks as she fails at her attempts to calm herself down. she pretty much does the opposite of that. ‘ you’re my partner! and i hate you for shutting me out and deciding unilaterally that you were going to keep on hunting. you know that was a decision we should have made together.
‘ how dare you do that? how am i supposed to trust you fully again now? because every single time you walk out that door, i’m going to be thinking “is he going hunting? is he leaving me behind again?” ’ he tries to reach out for her, but she side steps out of his reach. she doesn’t even want him to touch her right now; she can barely even look at him. she feels sick, but she swallows it, along with a frustrated sob. ‘ where is the man i fell in love with? ’ she demands. and even she knows that was harsh, but she can’t help it.
all of the hormones swirling around in her are amplifying her anger. and he deserves to know how she feels. ‘ you may think you need me more than i need you, and you may think my life is somehow more precious than yours — but you’re wrong! ’ she’s full on sobbing down, her head hanging as she cries, hands wiping the tears from her face furiously. ‘ do you — do you remember when i went back to beacon hills and got myself killed? ’ temporarily.
‘ do you remember how angry and upset you were that i left you behind? now take that feeling and multiply it times a thousand! because i made the choice to leave you behind because i barely knew you, because you were inexperienced. and after that, we vowed that we would be a team. — but you left me behind! teams. don’t. do. that! ’ allison points a shaky finger at him. ‘ and if you hadn’t decided that i was too weak to deal with it, and we went out there together that night like we should have, none of this would have happened! ’ her voice becomes weaker and weaker as she speaks.
and her anger slowly fades into sadness. heartbreak. ‘ i gave up my whole identity to move to the middle of nowhere and stop hunting because you wanted us to live a safe life with chris. and i did it because i love you. but now — now i find out that while i’m playing cop to a town with virtually no crime, you’re still out there on the hunt. without me. and i hate you for it. i love you so much, but i hate you so much. we’re supposed to be partners, in everything, and you just tore that apart like it meant nothing to you. ’
she knows, logically, that this whole thing came from a place of love. deep, unbreakable love for her. she knows that. she does. but she can’t keep away the feeling of betrayal that claws at her heart. she can’t keep but feeling like he thought she was too weak to handle this. that’s not it — she knows, she knows. but how does she convince her heart of that? she always thought she was tough, always wanted to be powerful, always loathed herself when she was weak. so now, feeling like he, the one person in the world who knows her better than anyone else, thought she was too weak, too fragile, too girly to deal — it’s killing her.
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protegeons posted this two important plot items: i will never write the infidelity stuff of s3. and i won't write jeremy killing kol. these are personal choices.
this blog has existed on tumblr since early 2011, with the original url being gilbert-jeremy. i've also used the urls jeremysgone (post-4x14), jeremysback (post-4x23), and dontyouxdare (post s5 finale).
due to the nature of jeremy's story, you may find triggering themes featured here, including self-harm, mental health issues, drugs, alcohol, addiction, violence, abuse, murder, suicide, and death. this blog will NOT write ANYTHING related to rape/sexual assault. please tag your nsfw so tumblr savior can do it's job!
on the subject of tagging, please tag anything related to jeremy's death in 4x14 as stacey don't look. Same goes for audio posts of 'Come Home' by OneRepublic aka the soundtrack to Jeremy's first death. Thanks!
SHIPPING: i am equal-opportunity as far as shipping goes, but roleplay is about so much more than romance and smut. i am an absolute sucker for a good, honest, platonic friendship. relationships are all fine and good, but it's the friendships that weave in and out that make them really special. i will never force a ship on you, and i ask that you return the same courtesy. the only ship i will flat out refuse is romantic damon x jeremy.
ORIGINAL CHARACTERS: are my lifeblood. please have a simple bio accessible on your blog for me to read!
PSA: IF I CAN'T READ YOUR BLOG, I WON'T FOLLOW YOU. it is not my job to make YOUR blog legible.
STARTERS: if you want to tag me in a random starter, go ahead! just remember that don't know the plots of seasons 6-8!
MEMES: send 'em. i don't care if we're mutuals or not. i do not believe in reblog karma and honestly don't care if you 'use' me as a 'meme resource.'
CONTACT ME: i will always reply to anything in my tag- as opposed to my inbox. i'm not the best at replying to messages or meme requests for that matter. i don't have a discord or skype and don't really plan on getting either.
WARNING: my muse is fickle, and i won't always reply to things in the order i receive them. i will not put up with being guiltripped to roleplay- whether it's passive aggressive posts or sending 'poke' messages to remind me to reply. i will literally just unfollow you and be done with it. i created jeremy to be my safe space away from a toxic rp environment, and i won't allow anyone to compromise that.
while this is a JEREMY GILBERT blog, there are three versions of him you may find on here, depending on the universe you interact with him. see the FCs here.
MUN: hi! my name is stacey (she/her). i'm 26 years old, and my otp is jeremy x allison argent (teen wolf). you can catch me at my personal blog here or my personal twitter here!
ICONS: starting of march 2019, any srm icons i will be using for replies have been made by my roleplay mum rachie. all mooney icons are made by the lovely evie. don't steal 'em!
Prior to the beginning of the series, his parents died in a tragic car accident. His sister, Elena, was also in the car that night, but managed to survive thanks to Stefan Salvatore, who rescued her before she could drown. As a way of coping with the accident, he started dealing and using drugs, but soon stopped after the death of his first girlfriend, Vicki Donovan, who had supposedly died of an overdose. Following the murder of his second girlfriend Anna, Jeremy purposely overdosed on pills after drinking vampire blood in the hope of becoming a vampire so he could turn off his humanity. However, his attempt to become a vampire failed, and the blood healed the damage the pills caused to his system.
Jeremy was shot by Sheriff Forbes after Damon dodged the bullet, and was revived by Bonnie, who at the time was channeling the power of over a hundred massacred witches at the witch burial ground. However, the spell that caused him to be revived also gave him the power to see ghosts, causing him to be haunted by the ghosts of his dead girlfriends Vicki and Anna.
After experiencing multiple traumatic events as a result of the supernatural drama in his town, including being compelled by Klaus to stand in front of a speeding car, Elena feared for his safety and arranged for Damon to compel him to live with extended family in Denver.