it won't fix what's really wrong
And you saw what you had to do.
canon divergent jeremy gilbert
tracking gilbertjeremy
adored by stacey
canon divergent jeremy gilbert
tracking gilbertjeremy
adored by stacey
she reaches for him now, like she’s wanted to, but has been hesitant to do since she found him. her fingers run through his hair as her chin quivers and she desperately tries, and fails, to stop herself from crying. she holds his head in her hands, and for a moment, it doesn’t just feel like she’s holding onto the man that she loves. it feels like she’s grasping onto him, and on to them. onto their love, their past and their future. onto everything that’s happened in their lives that lead them to one another, and she can’t help but think for a moment how close they could have came to never meeting in the first place.
and she vows to herself, silently, that nothing in this world, past or future, could separate them. not even amnesia. not even death. and as tears fall from her eyes, she leans in and kisses him, hoping to express all the things she wants to say, but can’t quite put into words. when she pulls back, she’s reaching into her pocket, revealing a folded envelope. ‘ after my mom died, i decided that i never wanted kids. i didn’t want to ever hurt or disappoint… i didn’t want to bring kids into a world with so much darkness and pain. but then i met you, and you changed everything. but it never felt like change; it was as if meeting you, falling in love with you revealed who i was supposed to be all along. you helped me find me. ’
allison places the envelope in his hand. ‘ the day you went missing, i had a doctor’s appointment. i didn’t want to find out the gender of the baby without you, so she wrote it down for me. after you went missing… i wanted to do this together. now seems like a good a time as any, doesn’t it? ’ she can’t count the number of times she held that envolope in her hands, so close to opening it. but it felt like if she did open it, it would mean she gave up on jeremy, like she gave up hope of ever finding him. so she decided to wait, every time. but now they’re here, together, and it just seems right.
he’s like a lost child in her hands, clinging to her as if letting go meant getting swept away by the ocean of emotion crashing around them. it still doesn’t make sense, not one bit, but the longer they go- the more she fights for him- jeremy gilbert is returning. his mind is in crisis, and it’s only by focusing on the rounded edge of her stomach that he doesn’t go completely mad.
anguish lumps in his throat when she pulls away, like his lifeline is being severed, but when the piece of white folded paper comes into view, he stuffs down his uncertainty. shaky hands take her gift, his eyes never leaving hers, ears hyper-focused on every word. “and this?” his thumb brushes absently against the smooth texture of the envelope. “this has the answer? this says what we’re having?” he barely has control of his mind- but this is so important. to both of them. to everything they are, to the very chance of them having a future. this baby is the reason for everything, for everything he did that he cannot- and perhaps does not- want to remember.
“i want to.” nervous energy creates a sputter of laughter, rumbling in his chest. his gaze flickers between the life-changing object in his hand and the life-changing woman before him. “i… i remember, christopher catching us off-guard. neither of us were ready to be parents. i don’t want to make those mistakes again, and it starts with this…” tears in his eyes, again? surely he’s more than this blubbering mess. “i’m not gonna pretend i remember raising him with you; i’m kinda starting from scratch here, but i wanna be ready to do this with you.”
he’s on his feet now, fingers moving nimbly to open the envelope. his eyes flicker to hers for one last bit of reassurance, and then he slides the piece of paper out. at once, all the air rushes out of his lungs, and jeremy doesn’t even try to replenish them. choking on the words- nay, the very emotions themselves- he whispers. “it’s a girl.”
he steps forward to her, his free hand cupping the side of her face, and he remembers to breathe again. and it’s because of her.
“we’re having a baby girl, allison.”
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elenaloveablekotsala liked this two important plot items: i will never write the infidelity stuff of s3. and i won't write jeremy killing kol. these are personal choices.
this blog has existed on tumblr since early 2011, with the original url being gilbert-jeremy. i've also used the urls jeremysgone (post-4x14), jeremysback (post-4x23), and dontyouxdare (post s5 finale).
due to the nature of jeremy's story, you may find triggering themes featured here, including self-harm, mental health issues, drugs, alcohol, addiction, violence, abuse, murder, suicide, and death. this blog will NOT write ANYTHING related to rape/sexual assault. please tag your nsfw so tumblr savior can do it's job!
on the subject of tagging, please tag anything related to jeremy's death in 4x14 as stacey don't look. Same goes for audio posts of 'Come Home' by OneRepublic aka the soundtrack to Jeremy's first death. Thanks!
SHIPPING: i am equal-opportunity as far as shipping goes, but roleplay is about so much more than romance and smut. i am an absolute sucker for a good, honest, platonic friendship. relationships are all fine and good, but it's the friendships that weave in and out that make them really special. i will never force a ship on you, and i ask that you return the same courtesy. the only ship i will flat out refuse is romantic damon x jeremy.
ORIGINAL CHARACTERS: are my lifeblood. please have a simple bio accessible on your blog for me to read!
PSA: IF I CAN'T READ YOUR BLOG, I WON'T FOLLOW YOU. it is not my job to make YOUR blog legible.
STARTERS: if you want to tag me in a random starter, go ahead! just remember that don't know the plots of seasons 6-8!
MEMES: send 'em. i don't care if we're mutuals or not. i do not believe in reblog karma and honestly don't care if you 'use' me as a 'meme resource.'
CONTACT ME: i will always reply to anything in my tag- as opposed to my inbox. i'm not the best at replying to messages or meme requests for that matter. i don't have a discord or skype and don't really plan on getting either.
WARNING: my muse is fickle, and i won't always reply to things in the order i receive them. i will not put up with being guiltripped to roleplay- whether it's passive aggressive posts or sending 'poke' messages to remind me to reply. i will literally just unfollow you and be done with it. i created jeremy to be my safe space away from a toxic rp environment, and i won't allow anyone to compromise that.
while this is a JEREMY GILBERT blog, there are three versions of him you may find on here, depending on the universe you interact with him. see the FCs here.
MUN: hi! my name is stacey (she/her). i'm 26 years old, and my otp is jeremy x allison argent (teen wolf). you can catch me at my personal blog here or my personal twitter here!
ICONS: starting of march 2019, any srm icons i will be using for replies have been made by my roleplay mum rachie. all mooney icons are made by the lovely evie. don't steal 'em!
Prior to the beginning of the series, his parents died in a tragic car accident. His sister, Elena, was also in the car that night, but managed to survive thanks to Stefan Salvatore, who rescued her before she could drown. As a way of coping with the accident, he started dealing and using drugs, but soon stopped after the death of his first girlfriend, Vicki Donovan, who had supposedly died of an overdose. Following the murder of his second girlfriend Anna, Jeremy purposely overdosed on pills after drinking vampire blood in the hope of becoming a vampire so he could turn off his humanity. However, his attempt to become a vampire failed, and the blood healed the damage the pills caused to his system.
Jeremy was shot by Sheriff Forbes after Damon dodged the bullet, and was revived by Bonnie, who at the time was channeling the power of over a hundred massacred witches at the witch burial ground. However, the spell that caused him to be revived also gave him the power to see ghosts, causing him to be haunted by the ghosts of his dead girlfriends Vicki and Anna.
After experiencing multiple traumatic events as a result of the supernatural drama in his town, including being compelled by Klaus to stand in front of a speeding car, Elena feared for his safety and arranged for Damon to compel him to live with extended family in Denver.