it won't fix what's really wrong
And you saw what you had to do.
canon divergent jeremy gilbert
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adored by stacey
canon divergent jeremy gilbert
tracking gilbertjeremy
adored by stacey
she yearns to take his hand in hers, to try to offer some comfort. but she doubts that anything she can do right now will be of any comfort to him, especially physical contact. he has every reason to hate her, and she suspect that he does. after what she’s done to him… if situations were reversed, she knows that she would be filled with resentment. that’s exactly what she had felt when her own parents did this to her. and that’s exactly what she’d felt every time niklaus drove a dagger through her chest. rebekah closes her eyes, and for a moment after he speaks, a sob overtakes her body.
but then she gathers herself as best she can, looking at him with wet and desperate eyes. ‘ for what it’s worth, ’ she says under her breath, ‘ you would always have a place with me. dead or alive, human or vampire, you will always have a place with me, jeremy gilbert, ’ her words hitch in her throat, her voice squeaky as she presses her hands to her chest, right above her heart. she wishes she could beg him to live, and she wants to — it’s right on the tip of her tongue. but hasn’t she been selfish enough with him already? doesn’t she owe it to him, to her feelings for him, to let him go, like he wants? isn’t that the least she could do?
‘ you’re right. either way, you’ll have to say goodbye to the people you love. as terrible as my brothers are, i’ve never had to lose them. i may have wanted to… ’ she attempts a smile, but her lips still quiver and it looks twisted and wrong. there’s no way she can lighten this mood. it’s full of sadness that demands to be felt. ‘ i don’t know what you want me to say. your mind seems to be made up. if you want me to try and talk you out of it, i will, but… just tell me what you want me to do. whatever you want me to do, i’ll do it. ’
her words are so soft, he actually misses the beginning of her sentence, but once his ears train in on the lower volume, his eyes soften. she’s grieving him already, and he hasn’t even passed yet. there’s a strange comfort in that, even if the words that follow after such a strong sentiment do not offer much clarity for him. they can talk and talk into circles until he dries out, or he can stop putting it off and choose.
cautiously, jeremy steps forward towards her, until unsteady hands are able to reach out and take hers, putting them aware from her chest. his calloused thumbs brush over her porcelain skin, as if trying to divine an answer from that delicate touch. tears sting at the corners of his eyes, and as he takes a deep breath, his grip tightens on hers.
“i don’t know if i’m strong enough,” he admits in a whisper. “i wish i could be strong enough for you.” from the moment he woke up to his new reality, jeremy’s been nothing if not brutally honest. and there’s no point in stopping now. “when i was 15, i was in love with a girl. her name was anna- and she, she was a vampire. and they killed her.” there’s no point in explaining who, or why it happened. there’s no point in describing the way she was tore screaming from his arms, or how she haunted him long after her body grew cold. that night would forever be burned in his thoughts. her death shaped him in ways that he still continues to discover to this very day. “that night, i tried to turn myself with a vial of her blood, because i knew that as a vampire, i didn’t have to feel the pain of what happened to her if i didn’t want to. but it didn’t work- i woke up, and it was all still there.” god only knows what she thinks of him now- fragile tiny human crying about clinging to his fragile human life. but perhaps she needed to hear where he is coming from, and why he’s not just being dramatic for the sake of it.
jeremy attempts to continue. “i need–” but he falters, shaking his head. a few blinks release the tears from the confides of his gaze. “i need a better reason than not feeling the pain, or not being dead. give me a reason to stay.”
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this blog has existed on tumblr since early 2011, with the original url being gilbert-jeremy. i've also used the urls jeremysgone (post-4x14), jeremysback (post-4x23), and dontyouxdare (post s5 finale).
due to the nature of jeremy's story, you may find triggering themes featured here, including self-harm, mental health issues, drugs, alcohol, addiction, violence, abuse, murder, suicide, and death. this blog will NOT write ANYTHING related to rape/sexual assault. please tag your nsfw so tumblr savior can do it's job!
on the subject of tagging, please tag anything related to jeremy's death in 4x14 as stacey don't look. Same goes for audio posts of 'Come Home' by OneRepublic aka the soundtrack to Jeremy's first death. Thanks!
SHIPPING: i am equal-opportunity as far as shipping goes, but roleplay is about so much more than romance and smut. i am an absolute sucker for a good, honest, platonic friendship. relationships are all fine and good, but it's the friendships that weave in and out that make them really special. i will never force a ship on you, and i ask that you return the same courtesy. the only ship i will flat out refuse is romantic damon x jeremy.
ORIGINAL CHARACTERS: are my lifeblood. please have a simple bio accessible on your blog for me to read!
PSA: IF I CAN'T READ YOUR BLOG, I WON'T FOLLOW YOU. it is not my job to make YOUR blog legible.
STARTERS: if you want to tag me in a random starter, go ahead! just remember that don't know the plots of seasons 6-8!
MEMES: send 'em. i don't care if we're mutuals or not. i do not believe in reblog karma and honestly don't care if you 'use' me as a 'meme resource.'
CONTACT ME: i will always reply to anything in my tag- as opposed to my inbox. i'm not the best at replying to messages or meme requests for that matter. i don't have a discord or skype and don't really plan on getting either.
WARNING: my muse is fickle, and i won't always reply to things in the order i receive them. i will not put up with being guiltripped to roleplay- whether it's passive aggressive posts or sending 'poke' messages to remind me to reply. i will literally just unfollow you and be done with it. i created jeremy to be my safe space away from a toxic rp environment, and i won't allow anyone to compromise that.
while this is a JEREMY GILBERT blog, there are three versions of him you may find on here, depending on the universe you interact with him. see the FCs here.
MUN: hi! my name is stacey (she/her). i'm 26 years old, and my otp is jeremy x allison argent (teen wolf). you can catch me at my personal blog here or my personal twitter here!
ICONS: starting of march 2019, any srm icons i will be using for replies have been made by my roleplay mum rachie. all mooney icons are made by the lovely evie. don't steal 'em!
Prior to the beginning of the series, his parents died in a tragic car accident. His sister, Elena, was also in the car that night, but managed to survive thanks to Stefan Salvatore, who rescued her before she could drown. As a way of coping with the accident, he started dealing and using drugs, but soon stopped after the death of his first girlfriend, Vicki Donovan, who had supposedly died of an overdose. Following the murder of his second girlfriend Anna, Jeremy purposely overdosed on pills after drinking vampire blood in the hope of becoming a vampire so he could turn off his humanity. However, his attempt to become a vampire failed, and the blood healed the damage the pills caused to his system.
Jeremy was shot by Sheriff Forbes after Damon dodged the bullet, and was revived by Bonnie, who at the time was channeling the power of over a hundred massacred witches at the witch burial ground. However, the spell that caused him to be revived also gave him the power to see ghosts, causing him to be haunted by the ghosts of his dead girlfriends Vicki and Anna.
After experiencing multiple traumatic events as a result of the supernatural drama in his town, including being compelled by Klaus to stand in front of a speeding car, Elena feared for his safety and arranged for Damon to compel him to live with extended family in Denver.